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I am titled Melissa.
I've seen 20 revolutions around the sun.
Science + SciFi + Art
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Aspiring amateur astronomer.
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01/24/12

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Anonymous:
Sadness, feeling unsatisfactory, a sense of loneliness. Truly the human condition. No lover, drug or distraction can remove them from your consciousness, only your awareness. It's up to you to change your relationship to the sensation, because in reality that is only the problem. Pain + resistance = suffering. Remove your resistance and there is no more suffering and over time your relationship to pain will evolve. When it's okay to be lonely, okay to be sad, eventually they become like bliss.

I suppose this may be true and maybe even easily achievable for others; But after years, I just don’t know how to make having severe anxiety, etc, feel blissful. Having unprovoked panic attacks daily takes a toll on any human.

Wednesday, May 2, 2012
Monday, April 30, 2012
Saturday, March 31, 2012

Just picked up my Zoloft prescription, I’m terrified. Lol.

If anyone has any experience with this crap, help me out.

This alprazolam I have ingested requires a calm tea… or perhaps wine? Hm.

Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Official psychiatrist meeting today @ 12:00.

Let’s see how this woman will evaluate me, lol.

Thursday, March 8, 2012

Anxiety and Derealization

whenpanicattacks:

How is derealization related to anxiety?

The answer to this question is indeed a short one. It’s a dissociative symptomDerealization is inherent to anxiety. Mostly, You can not experience the symptoms of derealization if you do not suffer from some kind of anxiety disorder. Don’t treat derealization as a separate disorder, treat it as a symptom that originates from your underlying anxiety. You do not necessarily have to feel anxious to experience the symptoms of derealization. Anxiety may lay dormant in the background, but the fear of derealization itself will bring the anxiety to life, causing more derealization. It becomes a vicious cycle. 

Even if you don’t feel any particular anxiety at the moment, the DP/DR may still be present because of two factors:

  1. DP/DR needs time to “clear up”. It doesn’t disappear momentarely with the anxiety.
  2. You may feel relatively calm, but not calm enough to be able to let go of DP/DR.

What is derealization?

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Saturday, March 3, 2012

Got a script for 0.25 mg pills. My mother pitied me and asked my uncle to write it up. (The perks of having doctors in the family.) Of course she should have mentioned that 0.25 mg has no effect on me whatsoever… I’ll have to take a few at a time. Eh, I’m thankful. 

Got a script for 0.25 mg pills. My mother pitied me and asked my uncle to write it up. (The perks of having doctors in the family.) Of course she should have mentioned that 0.25 mg has no effect on me whatsoever… I’ll have to take a few at a time. Eh, I’m thankful. 

 
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